Too Much of Anything Can Make U Sick

Assalamualaikum...


LOL!  It's been aeons since I last updated my blog...Someone says that I write too much on Facebook that sometimes I make people nauseous, or wanna puke or think I'm a hypocrite...Therefore, today I'd like to share my experience on doing something too much...


Firstly, I eat too much.  As a baby I was born a prem baby (well, just a few weeks early).  As a toddler, I was very thin...thin from head to toe.  I had that pale thin hair, pale skin, sleepy eyes and I didn't talk much.  So my mom took me to many clinics for check-ups and I guess all doctors failed to convince her that I was normal.  She fed me with tons and tons of chocolate and by the age of 5, my mom succeeded in making me a chubby kid. As I grow up, I maintained chubby, but I could still get involved in sports activities at school.  I participated in MSSWP, the school netball team but unfortunately, at the age of 12, I got involved with an accident - broke my nose, my legs and fractured my ankles.  There goes the hobby - The doctor said "No sports for a year"...Too much of jogging has lead me to that accident, a motorcycle knocked me down while I was jogging (preparing for a netball tournament)...As I enrolled in the secondary school, I secretly participated in the annual sports preliminary round for the new athletes selection.  We had to run 10 laps around the school but I managed to run only 9 laps - and I was already too heavy to compete with the others...Kaboosh!  There goes my dream, into the drain...


As a teenager, I read a lot of books.  Didn't have so many close friends...just a few...Intan, Fiffy, Baby, Etta, the rest are just...I shall say...hmmm...acquaintance?  What did I do? And why?  I read a lot of books.  When I came back from Paris, I had to struggle at school...had to learn Bahasa Melayu and English all at once.  I didn't have much guts to speak in English with my teachers...With friends - not so badlah!  To improve my language, I read books...I've lost count of the books I've read...I just found out that some of them in high school regarded me as a 'freak' coz all I did was put on my walkman (secretly of course - because the school HM was very strict) and read story books.  At one point of time, there were times when I secretly took out books from the school library because we were not allowed to borrow more than 2 books at once.  Hmmm...I took it out, read it at home and secretly returned it. So I guess, too much of reading made me a book thief.  My apology dear librarians...LOL!!!


As an adult...I developed a terrible skill - A skill of being EXTRA talkative and OUTSPOKEN all at the same time.  Those who really know me would normally understand what I say or write because they can relate to the situations that I was facing at that particular time but...well...you know...there are so many people around you - If u don't watch what you say, u  might just be perceived the wrong way most of the time because they don't really know you and they do not know what is going on in your head.  Business Communication tip:  DO NOT ASSUME THAT PEOPLE CAN READ YOUR MIND - that's why I'm very straight forward.  Some might think you're a hypocrite (for being loud? Ironic, right?), some might think I snapped at them (maybe because she / he said something to me at the wrong time) and the list goes on...


I would like to explain something here...I'm normally LOUD or FRANK in three situations (maybe more):
1.  When I'm concerned about something - usually things in the office...I'll try to be clear and concise...
2.  When I'm angry with people who put their nose where it doesn't belong...
3.  When I've told something to a family member and no action is taken...
4.  When I just wanna get something out of my system...


I like to share my sorrows with my friends...Unfortunately, under some circumstances...some of them get tired of listening...some of them thinks I'm a hypocrite - for example, I express my love for my ill mom via Facebook but I share my sorrow of taking the burden alone (usually with FRIENDS) they think I grumble about it.  One even say it straight to my face that "I have to do it because she's my mom" - Well of course I know that!  The phrase "have to" shouldn't exist!  I guess I was wrong....Wrong about what?  Wrong about sharing my sorrows with friends OR wrong about perceiving that I actually have friends.  What are friends for? It's simple as ABC - friends are people who would always be there for you through thick and thin...If one thinks that what you say or what you do makes he / she sick and just wanna put a stop to it, tired of listening to it...then, that person is not a friend...


All in all, when you're straight forward, people think you're harsh...What is wrong and what is right here?  Can anybody tell me?  I would like to share a hadith here...sorry I have to write it in Malay coz I got it from an ustaz and haven't found the time to translate it....it's something about "Mencari keredhaan Allah dengan kemarahan manusia is much more better than mencari keredhaan manusia dengan kemarahan Allah and if kita mencari keredhaan Allah, nescaya Allah akan sentiasa permudahkan segala urusan kita...."  panjang lagi but I don't remember the whole hadith...forgive me...I just wish everything will be easy...I just wish I can pour my heart out...everything out...but I doubt that people will understand...After all, quoting my secretary "Fatin", we cannot please everybody and quoting my x-boss "Kak Nikki", too much of anything is not good...Where does that bring me?  I for one, have never failed to listen to my friends sorrows...I don't believe in being too polite that I fail to communicate what's in my head...If I don't like to hear / read something that a person wrote on Facebook or in the real life, I'll just ignore...it's none of my business anyway, why should I put my nose where it doesn't belong?  And yet, too much of honesty makes me annoying to some others...I'm just a human being - I should, therefore, go back to the Al-Quran and Hadith...for instance:  "Do not say anything if u do not have anything nice to say" BUT, DEAR READERS, THAT HADITH WAS NOT MEANT  FOR US TO BE HYPOCRITES...kat depan, jadi kawan, kat belakang, jadi lawan.  It's more hurtful when you bathmouth people / people that u pretend to be your friend, behind their back...I pray to Allah to regain myself...I just wanna go back to my OLD SELF, the one that Intan and Fiffy used to know...loving too many people willl only get myself hurt OVER AND OVER AGAIN.  I share my thoughts, only with those I consider my friends (that I love very much - sometimes even more than my own siblings because only my friends know all my predicament).  Forgive me for all the disturbance I caused you...